1st July 2011

Half of 2011 has passed.. so fast.. today is 1st July.. 2nd part of 2011.. hope will be better for me.. has been on off work.. haiz.. hope to find a perm job real soon!

below will be a long long ranting post.. i really canot take it anymore....

i hate to get money from my hubby, s many questions. and we rented the other room out as well.. depsite my unwellingness, haiz.. but he dare to take the money to use without discussing with me!! all along there is an agreement that rental will be put into the joint account for payment of housing & bills, rest will be to save up.

i really really hate it.

back to the new tenant, she is 1 year younger than me, a malaysian, from ipoh, company sent her to singapore branch to work. i have set out all the rules. hope no hiccups. yesterday brought her to JP, boon lay market to familiarise her with the surrounding and bus stop. due to previous hiccups with my colleague and her room mate, i have phobia. all because of a small problem with the room mate, ended up i lost a fren. not worth. so now, i dun be close to any of the tenant already. i dun wan to be hurt and if any problem, can tell them straight.

monday & tues will hv job interview, hopefully both are good and i can get the 1 nearer to house!!!

i hate my life now. really hate. 2 weeks ago, have a big fight with my hubby. all because of her mum & sister. mayb its nothing real big deal but to me, i have been tolerating for very long and i still can't take it easy. here is y.. her sis & mum got a very bad habit of popping over to our house, stating that this is their son/bro house. so what if this is ur son/bro house, this is also my house. can u all respect me?? im also the owner of the house. everything also wan kaypoh, this 1 put here, that 1 thrw away.. then y in the 1st place, when we just got our house, u everything also wan to put in our house? do i have the choice to say no?? yes, in a way u r helping us to save money, but in another way u r messing my house. my house got no class.. but it feels like a home that i like. homely~~

and everytime when we go out without the sis's hubby (who is working), u all will pop over to our hosue to wait.. and u dun bother to ask if its ok.. can u respect me? u dun care if we r tired, if we wants to do our own things.. u just stay put.. i wanted to hide in my room, but thats no respect for u all.. but i really dun like to entertain u all. just like the sunday 2 weeks agom which is father's day. we went kite flying in the evening with my MIL, SIL, and fren. sil's hubby is working, so after kite flying and dinner, u all just pop over to my house. kay poh this and that which i really dun like.

AND WHY MUST U TRANSFORM MY STUDY ROOM INTO A BEDROOM??? if u know there is no place to sleep in my house, why do u wan to sleep here then???? and i can't make any decision in my own house? got ask i like a not? i dun like, i dun like ok. i really really got no respect from them at all. i have a traditional thinking.. im the 大嫂。 can u respect me this 大嫂 and 媳妇？

writing it out makes me feel much much better.. no 1 knows my feeling, everybody will thot im petty.. but i really cannot take it anymore... i need to vent it out...

im not having a gd life this few months. very sianz.. really hope to drink away my troubles....

1st Feb 2011

Today is the 1st day of February liao.. so fast.. one month has passed for 2011.. and tomorrow is CNY eve liao....

Really hope that Rabbit year will be a gd yr for me although most of the horoscopes reading say that it will not b a smooth yr for rat..

really sian at work. they treat me like xiao mei, ask me do this, do that. get signature cannot get urself ah. cannot fax together meh? why must b me lei.

shall throw away the unhappiness, CNy is coming!

5 days to CNY

5 more days will CNY liao.. so fast.. will be sending off the Tiger and welcoming the Rabbit. read the zodiac & horoscopes, this yr like will not be very smooth. a lot of quarreling between me & my hubby. Quite true.. these 2 weeks has been quarreling on & off.. i also dun know why.. haiz..

this sat, char might be coming over to stay also. hehe.. her dad & mum have company dinner, so me this gan ma have to look after my precious god-daughter lor.. hehe..

last sat, went shopping with mum, char & elicia. as i was having headache, so we left early with char, elicia went shopping herself. then brouight char to mum's place, as need mum to help look after her as i have reunion dinner at night and cannot bring char along. i took a nap and tell char to b gd girl play herself and i on rapunzel for her. my mum entertain her. haha.. after a nap, my headache dun seems better and i took 2 pandol extra, and it really relief my headache. haha.. then i played with char a while and when i going to leave the house, char dun let me go.. she say:"i dun wan ganma go out.." and give me the very poor thing face. i coax her for ten min and she finally agree to let me go out. luckily she never cry when i leave the house and my mum told me she mess up the fridge's magnet.. haha..

after dinner darling & i faster go back to fetch char to my house. when char see me, she was so happy to hug me & darling.. haha.. like my own daughter like that.

then when reach home, bathe her , and she was so awake that she keep playing toys and only willing to sleep near to 1am. when darling never off the comp she will say:" 干爹 naughty boy, dun wan sleep" haha.. she wans all to sleep together.

she was sleeping in between us and the whole night she slept close to darling and stick to his back. i so scared that he flip and will squash her. whole night i can't sleep.. haha...

then in the morning 10plus i woke up and she jump up.i think she is awake already only saw that i was not awake she dun dare to disturb me. the 1st thing she say,: can we play toys now?" haha.. then 2nd thing:" where is 干爹" then i told her u kick 干爹 down the bed liao. then she look down for 干爹. haha.. so cute. then gave her milk and brought her to eat breakfast at mac while waiting for elicia. haha.. then shop around bought her a dress. keke..

loves char to bits.

today and tml wil b CNY goodies baking time!! so busy!! then sun will b going back to mum's place for reunion dinner!

10 Jan 2011

Today is the 10th day of 2011.. so fast.. less than a month will be CHinese New Year... and last friday is Dad's death anniversary.. 4years.. Dad has left us for 4 years...

met up with a pri / sec sch friend last fri.. he was insurance agent and he come to mum's void deck to explain plans to me.. hehe.. he live nearby only ma.. hehe.. after that we chatted till 11plus.. haha.. a lot to talk.. didn't imagine that.. hehe...

this month's weekend very busy sia.. this sat will help mum go to CC to take 7kg of rice... the aunties ask my mum to register to take, criteria is above 60yrs old.. haha.. then 4pm the dustmite company will come to kill the dustmite in my house, 2 bedrooms, referred by Kim Lan.. hehe... then evening darling's ex colleague invited for baby's full month.. dun know darling will bring me along a not... oh and also PSC is having warehouse sale.. will be meeting melody to go! not sure when, hopefully sunday ba..

then sunday, charlene might b coming over... then 3-5pm, the aircon pple coming to service aircon and top up gas...

next sat. 22Jan, planning bring mum to buy new year clothes. planning to bring charlene and 'kidnap' her to my house to stay.. haha.. hv to ask elicia 1st...

then sun is free...

then, 28 jan, asked miss like & mei mei to come over to make new year goodies.. floss roll, pineapple tarts,almond cookies.. will divide into 2 days to make... then sunday go over to mummy's house to eat reunion dinner...

this year's reunion dinner, my mil say wan come my house to eat, with my mum & bro.. keke.. but she say dun wan eat steamboat.. but the sister so ti ki, i rather make steamboat... if not she will criticise myy cooking like no body business..

i was telling my mum ask the sister's hubby cook! haha.. he is chef at coffeeshop ma.. wahahaha...

bored at work.....