Friday, July 01, 2011

1st July 2011

Half of 2011 has passed.. so fast.. today is 1st July.. 2nd part of 2011.. hope will be better for me.. has been on off work.. haiz.. hope to find a perm job real soon!

below will be a long long ranting post.. i really canot take it anymore....

i hate to get money from my hubby, s many questions. and we rented the other room out as well.. depsite my unwellingness, haiz.. but he dare to take the money to use without discussing with me!! all along there is an agreement that rental will be put into the joint account for payment of housing & bills, rest will be to save up.

i really really hate it.

back to the new tenant, she is 1 year younger than me, a malaysian, from ipoh, company sent her to singapore branch to work. i have set out all the rules. hope no hiccups. yesterday brought her to JP, boon lay market to familiarise her with the surrounding and bus stop. due to previous hiccups with my colleague and her room mate, i have phobia. all because of a small problem with the room mate, ended up i lost a fren. not worth. so now, i dun be close to any of the tenant already. i dun wan to be hurt and if any problem, can tell them straight.

monday & tues will hv job interview, hopefully both are good and i can get the 1 nearer to house!!!

i hate my life now. really hate. 2 weeks ago, have a big fight with my hubby. all because of her mum & sister. mayb its nothing real big deal but to me, i have been tolerating for very long and i still can't take it easy. here is y.. her sis & mum got a very bad habit of popping over to our house, stating that this is their son/bro house. so what if this is ur son/bro house, this is also my house. can u all respect me?? im also the owner of the house. everything also wan kaypoh, this 1 put here, that 1 thrw away.. then y in the 1st place, when we just got our house, u everything also wan to put in our house? do i have the choice to say no?? yes, in a way u r helping us to save money, but in another way u r messing my house. my house got no class.. but it feels like a home that i like. homely~~

and everytime when we go out without the sis's hubby (who is working), u all will pop over to our hosue to wait.. and u dun bother to ask if its ok.. can u respect me? u dun care if we r tired, if we wants to do our own things.. u just stay put.. i wanted to hide in my room, but thats no respect for u all.. but i really dun like to entertain u all. just like the sunday 2 weeks agom which is father's day. we went kite flying in the evening with my MIL, SIL, and fren. sil's hubby is working, so after kite flying and dinner, u all just pop over to my house. kay poh this and that which i really dun like.

AND WHY MUST U TRANSFORM MY STUDY ROOM INTO A BEDROOM??? if u know there is no place to sleep in my house, why do u wan to sleep here then???? and i can't make any decision in my own house? got ask i like a not? i dun like, i dun like ok. i really really got no respect from them at all. i have a traditional thinking.. im the 大嫂。 can u respect me this 大嫂 and 媳妇?

writing it out makes me feel much much better.. no 1 knows my feeling, everybody will thot im petty.. but i really cannot take it anymore... i need to vent it out...

im not having a gd life this few months. very sianz.. really hope to drink away my troubles....